Well, made it to lunch with no real urges to contact or force communication with H.
My mind is having a problem though…I want H to tell OW about this pregnancy so bad. I can't keep from wondering when he is going to do it? I know it doesn't mean he will miraclously come back to me, but can't help from wanting her to know. I know that we won't be able to move forward or even try if she is still in the picture.
H is going to be gone for the next two weeks & with her for 1.5 of those. I'm pretending in my head it's going to a 'goodbye' time for them. Like he's looking at it as one last time to be together. I know that if they do breakup it will be detrimental for him and will be grieving for what I can imagine quite some time.
Ok, enough of that crap! I think I needed to type that out to get it out of my head. Now, I'm off to get those Oreos.
M 34 H 35 D 7 D 6 M 10 T 14 Pregnant w/ boy/girl twins-due 12/2013 BD 12/15/12
