i'd say it's "something" good that she is planning to tell you about it. my h sneaks off - well, now i know- but before i guess. he doesn't say a thing about a thing. i do know tho-
my imagination is my WORST enemy. it runs wild. no one alive could possibly have as much fun - sex- you name it- as i imagine. it stinks. i'm learning to curb it- it took a long time. i don't think it ever goes away completely - maybe it does and i'mjust not there yet. this business of really not caring. i'm accepting of it- now when he's with ow - and i know it- it is just a dull "don't like this man he is" kind of thing. maybe that is worse - when you're not mad and rabid- you're just slowly turning away inside .
oh well- keep a good thought yourself. if she's talling you- she's still giving a darn what you think and feel. i'd say.
they are just different people now - i don't like this new guy most of the time. will he be that forever - only God knows.\
i get the mlc spiel- just when i am about to give it up- i read something again in a mwd book- that describs exactly what he's doing- or someone's posts - dawns's usually- and there he is- in her h, in everyone's mlc spou=se andi think, oh well- maybe we'll be part of the bigger statistical group where my h actually comes out of his "tunnel" in the end and we achieve some kind of life togethr IN THE END.
WHO KNOWS_ MOST DAYS i feel like i'll be in the 25% of total failure (but get to know i tried til the bitter end) ya gotta wonder.
really tho- i have no better life to run to - so here i am. maybe it's a good enough reason to do all this work- who does know???? it's like the lottery i figure- gotta be in it to win it.
hang on man- hope your weekend isn't too awful. i did that weekene last week. boy oh boy did i ever keep busy- every social engagement i was offered & then some- out of house from early early morning til nite- it h3elped.
i say go doe verything in the world outside your house that you've been putting off- visit your old icky aunt - go shop- go visit old friends you've been avoiding- anyting & everything to be busy as heck and not think.
