Also in response to T1000, no, I really have no expectations, or at least most of the time...that is not to say I have no hopes or desires, but I do not expect anything of her. That is to say, while I hope that she will say for example contact me, or send me something, or come back home, I know that I can't count on any of these things happening. Basically, I know that I love her, and I don't need any excuses to love her; I'm learning that I love her no matter what the situation, and that I can give her my love without expecting anything in return. I've known this all along, but now it's really being tested...
It was one of the first things I began to work on...I guess in a way this is kind of detaching?
