You're right, writing the letter was a panic move...I knew it at the time, but I still felt that I needed to do it...guess I need to find some strategies for dealing with anxiety, but it's not something I've experienced much before, so not sure what to do. And I see now that the letter is pressure on her, I'll work on this, on not doing things like this. In a way it was reiterating my position, but there were a number of things in the letter that were not in the convo that I wanted to say. I'll be working on the patience thing more now.
As for an OM, I can't say for sure. The week she left she did go out with another man. She told me she was to try to prove to herself that she was doing the right thing. She said that all it did was prove her wrong, hurt her badly emotionally, and cast doubt as to whether this was what she wanted; I know I'm not supposed to believe what she says or does, but this is one place where I feel she was sincere. I take that as a good sign...I said nothing, just let it go...
GAL is still difficult, but I'm trying to figure it out...I suppose I'll get there.
As for the crying thing, I think I understand what T1000 is telling me. It's just that I feel like I need to. Sometimes the tears well up inside me but they just won't come. I try to find some other way to let it all out, like exercising (doing a lot of that) or beating the stuffing out of my pillow, or a whole bunch of other things. But in the end, it's still there, and I just want to process the feelings, get the stress out, and get back on the horse. I hope that all makes sense
