SP, I am still reading a lot of pain, bitterness and anger towards W in your posts. In fact, it seems like the levels of those emotions are higher now than in your past posts. I really feel like you are not in a position to make any big decisions right now. The decision to file divorce should be made when you are fully detached and can be completely objective about your wants and needs. I don't think you're anywhere close to being there. Divorce is not the magic bullet that will end your pain and suffering. You've got to process the pain and end your suffering in other ways, then when you're at peace with your sitch, THEN you're ready to contemplate D.