Only 2 weeks of school left. I've been thinking about my situation a lot lately. At this point I feel like if some time in the future W changed her mind and wanted to come back to me that it wouldn't matter because I don't want to be with her anymore. I know we had some good times together. The only time in my life when I have cried because I was overwhelmed by happiness was on my wedding day, but at this point I wish I had never met W.
Give yourself more time to process this. Just like the WAS can rewrite history, so can the LBS. It's a defense mechanism. It's normal to cycle through thoughts like this, I've done it too. Don't be surprised if you completely change your mind again in a week or two.
