Crazy little thing called MLC

[reachingHigher]

All joking aside (I did not joke with him) I took his feelings very seriously. I feel horrible about it, that I was too busy to meet his needs. I apologized to him and told him there are things that I did that I'm not happy about, things I've changed about myself. I know I was resentful of him. I take full responsibility for my faults and where I could have been a much better wife.

Raine, that's all you can do. You took responsibility and apologized, changed, and are hopeful for the future.

I agree with GG, there are so many more complex reasons than you, as to why this happened. Sometimes I think our spouses are so perplexed about it too, that they just look for some small things about us, to make sense of what they are doing. They don't even know.

I missed a lot of opportunities to attend to my H's needs also when the boys were little. It's just almost unavoidable at times. I'm ashamed at the way I was at times...but oh well! My H relied mostly on the "we've grown apart. We don't have any common interests. I never really loved you." type themes. But there were plenty of things he grew to dislike greatly about me before he moved out: how I folded his jeans, the fact I didn't consider wearing things like blue fingernail or toenail polish, he found me so boring, etc. etc. etc.

I'm still astounded at the depth of his journey away from me. We are reconnecting now, Raine. I'm so scared still it's not going to work out, but everything looks really good so far. Who would've thought it could happen?

I explored the same fears as you and same desires to run away. Far away. I had quite a bit of depression myself also, as replay continued. It's so tough.

When is your maternity leave up? Are you holding up physically?

You are such a special lady!

I went to a church function with S13 a couple of weeks ago and next to us in the row was a family with four young boys (oldest appeared to be 8 or so) and she was fully pregnant! I thought of you! I sure wish I could meet you!

You've made an impression on all of us here with your honesty, your deep love, your hope, your steadfastness, your integrity.

I hope you have a good weekend.

rH