I am going through one of my "moods" as my W calls it. It is where I backslide from my acceptance and appreciation into unforgiving, controlling, and generally aggitated. The trend is that whenever I ask for something from her she claims to already being doing all that she can or just tells me to deal with it. It doesn't seem to matter what my request is. I simply said that she is making feel unwanted physically. This happens in two ways. Either she wants something from me first or she makes me feel like I am bugging her. It wasn't always like this. She attributes it to our busy lifestyle but I'm not buying that. I think part of it is a current body image problem, but how in the heck to you bring that up without being decapitated?
The real issue now isn't what I asked of her, it is her response to me. "Deal with it" or "It is your problem" really makes me angry. I don't know how much I more I can do as I have done a lot. My perception is that it is in her court now. She told me this morning that if she doesn't do enough for me than I should seek it elsewhere. Hello, that is why I brought it up, I don't want it to go that way. Silly me, I am trying to communicate what I need, not hint or assume she'll figure it out. Excuse me for trying to be functional and proactive.
Sorry to be back on the board again. I had been away for so long but the same problems just keep coming up. I could give the full update but I don't have the time and don't want to bore you all to tears. Bottom line, unhappy and resentful is back, guess I should of learned to just shut my mouth and accept my fate.
