Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
You are right UW, you never know when we could cross paths
And the roller coaster continues...
Last night I went to yoga, then went with my friend who had tickets to a local musical event. We had a great time! Our evening got cut short when she got a call from the sitter that her son was sick. Such is motherhood
So I come home, and H is alien. He was perfectly fine when I left, told me to have fun and have a good time. But the switch was flipped, and he was someone else when I came home. I said a brief goodnight, and went to bed.
He comes up to bed at some point during the night. I didn't see that coming after my alien encounter!
His phone actually got a text a little after 6:00 am this morning. I have a pretty good idea who that was - got to keep him on that short leash! I felt a small tidbit of satisfaction knowing that he was sleeping in bed with me when she texted him - only because I know that would piss her off lol!
He's running errands with the boys now, but I think acting a little shady. Who knows what he's really up to.
When he's leaving, he brings up out of the blue that when we take the boys to the local theme park, we should go during the week so it's less crowded. It was a strange thing to say at that moment. Not sure if its connected to anything or not. Maybe it's just the jello brain talking??? Idk, I have this strange feeling OW is involved in this somehow. Am going to let the answers come to me on this one.
Off to grocery shop, happy Saturday everyone
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
Today was actually a really nice day. The weather was beautiful here, warm and sunny. We all spent the day outside, doing yard work, playing, and just enjoying the weather and being together.
Yet, I have a bit of a heavy heart. I think it's so much easier to shut him out and distance myself when he's the alien or moody/grumpy guy. But when I get a glimpse of how good things could be, my heart breaks a little more.
I was digging up some flowers in the front yard with S4, and H and S2 were in the garage. I heard H say to him, "Come here buddy and give me a kiss. I love you, you little bugger!"
My heart melted right then and there.
I am beyond thankful that he shows the boys he loves and cares about them, I know there are so many others who have horrible situations in this area.
And maybe I am a terrible, selfish person to say this, but there is a part of me that thinks - what about ME? When am I going to be loved by H?
What if the answer is never? Really trying to digest that as a possibility. I know, anything is possible.
Truly, today was a happy day for me. No matter what, I can remember a beautiful Saturday that I spent with my family.
And there is nothing that makes me happier
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
