[in_it]

Just picked up my car with H. It's like nothing ever happened. He acted completely normal. (Well, the new normal that we now live in) He was not short or unpleasant.

I wonder how many times we are going to do this? When will be the next time he flips out? Whenever it is, I'll be ready.

Of course this makes my mind spin & spin & spin…is him acting this way his way of numbing out & not caring while he tries to get his ducks in a row? Or is he really thinking about what he said & if he really means it? The old me would be asking him these things. The new & way improved me is waiting patiently & giving time. I've said it a million times…this is so hard!