I know you have been through so much already, and I am sorry you are continuing to face challenges. Your right my H is dead and gone as well. You do sound like your on a good path. I pray there will be a silver lining for us all.
<3 dm
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!