I went in to see my attorney yesterday, and I have decided to file for disolution of marriage. I will be heading out to sign the papers today and will have w served in the near future. It pains me greatly to be in this position, but the fear of possibly losing my daughter, on a pipe dream that W may come back, is not a chance I am willing to take.
I opted for divorce over separation simply because I do not ever see this turning around, and I don't want to go through the pain of the legal stuff twice.
I honestly feel that I could make every positive change in myself and become the man that only a fool would leave...and wife still wouldn't consider giving me another chance. She is simply continuing to stack up negatives in an effort to make our marriage out to be this horrific chapter in her life. She has told everyone she knows that she is divorcing me, that she is starting this wonderful new life. She has expressed to my D that she is going to have a house and allow daughter to decorate her own room. She is dating other men. She is pulling farther and farther away from me and our circle of friends. Those issues alone would make turning back extremely difficult for her. She isn't going to do it, even if it is simply to follow through with her word and save face.
I know that her vision of our marriage isn't the truth. It is actually far FAR from it, but the story she has rewritten about our time together has become her reality. It is really sad.
