yikes - how many more mornings will i read your posts and think - "yikes" what stuff to hear and digest. what an insight tho into the "it's about them" stuff. you're making me wonder this morning what my h thinks.
wierdly enough i was going to tell you what maybe is something about our sitch. he comes here and is all fixin stuff and being Mr. busy- mr. productive around the house. mowed lawn- working on book shelf. he's opting to do it- i thought it seems like he wants to and embraces the occupation and outlet of woodworking. then i'm reading your stuff-
and i was also marginally wondering if i'm just alot of household chores and boring junk. - there's nothing exciting about me anymore- just someone who paints the wall so you can put the shelves up and not have to screw around painting between boards. here i am painting the stupid wall- he's playing tennis- . to me it's life as usual and real life. maybe t him it's "oh man- kill me now- this is sooooo hohum and boring". '' somehow i'm not going to be that girl anymore- offering to do stuff to facilitate his projects, etc. the willing helper. i'm just a willing helper- wtf can i say? but maybe it's time to just be a bit more of a 8itch.? ya think... make him ask. never offer anything?
ow lives near disney- i bet they go tra la around, have loads of laughs - go on rides, $crew til their eyes fall out- and yay- is't sooooooo much FUNNNNN ALLLL THE TIME. NO bills, no chores, no reminders of responsibility- no nothin "real life".
i can see that- i'd like some of that myself. i can get it why it's more fun than me and houses and chores.
IT'S NOT MY FAULT OR MY DOING> HOW THE HECK DO I TURN myself into ole fun machine??? the chores are here- the houses are - the yard & garden is- wtf???
i can't get it tho- isn't the security and safeness of us and chores and real life a decent and satisfying thing to have in your life??? (i'd say yeah because they ahve it, and keep it) (and in my case - lied like mad to keep me hanging on). soooo wtf???
so then they have this big injection of excitement with ow- how the heck do we measure up to the whole "young & no responsibility life - which, by the way, is them visiting someone elses life. hanging out- like a kid. not your house, not your life, not your parents & rules - no participation in the responsibliity aspect. how does one compete with that? we don't i guess.
so stopped painting to drop in here.
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why can't M people have friends, what is a W.
my h says this too - what a jerk mine is- yeah, have friends allover the place - having sex with them changes the r and is a problem in ours. period. can he really be that dopey and deluded enough to not know that??? i also get that he doesn't care about that. he wants "FUN" (and he's tired of being responsible, etc......) i'm assuming. it's got to be the same for them all. recapture the magic in life - all of it on every level.
okay- i hope you can still hang on- i guess i think i can, i think i can - for another day anyway.
soooooo me- endure- plod - (see- we are "real life". wtf - do we need to change that? do we need to 8itch up??? whattya think?
hope your day is okay after a wild night. you h at least spews out his pain. mine? i'm not so sure he's in pain. he may have a bit of confusion- i'm not seeing the blood.
oh well-
xxoo ((( ))) wish i could come over with some of my famous (like giant hard gobs of wall paper paste) scones- they'd getyou cheered up. if nothing other than laughing at how awful they are unless they are absolutely dripping in butter- jam and cream. oh yummmm clotted cream - cholesterol fest - yay.....
