uR, I believe you are reading him correctly, i.e., wanting to see what would happen between you. Your xh doesn't know how to make amends and still is a bit foggy.
I think he opens the door every time he meets you by complimenting you. Yes, he realizes that you were the best of everything in his life pre-crisis. He can't locate the right key to unlock your door of indifference, but he's going to continue to try.
I'm glad that you son stays in touch w/his father, but the relationship will never be the same and that's very unfortunate.
You've come a long way and I do understand where you are coming from. He had it all and then destroyed everything that was good and nothing will ever be the same for him. Life didn't turn out the way he thought it should. Poor soul.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
