I was edward113. I have started a new post. In feb we had two mediation session, during the second one she state that mediation was not going to work and w screamed at me stating I was disgusting. She Ran out of the office screaming tried to slam the door in my face, shouting that she never wanted to see me again. It has been two months since then now she wants to return to mediation. I call the mediator had she has not her from my w. But base on her behaviour during the last session she was not sure my wife could handle return, almost got the feeling she did not want me to waste my time. Help....
Terrible. Part of me is I "knew it" part the part of me is sad. I mention to her that I spoke with the mediator but did not tell her what the mediator told me, I wonder if I should mention to W that she should speak with the mediator.Her behavior at our last session was uncalled for. Nothing that we were talking about was new information. Speaking with my therapist about it she wondered why I would put myself back in that same position. That my wife obliviously needs help
I torn, I really feel like I have my strides in myself, be coming a better person. My therapist told me the other day that I take her criticism very well, and i am look for ways to be a better person.
W sent me a message the another day, stating that she no long had a cell phone, wanted to schedule an appointment with the mediator. I laughed, because at the bottom of the message it stated it was sent for her iphone, It is 2013 did she really think that I would believe a 39th year woman would not have a cellphone. I responded to her, " No cell phone, but your message states it was send from you iphone?, still awaiting for an answer.
this is what I want too say to her. "I hope you remember me when you are with him and he is touch you fake boobs, who was the one who nurse you back to health, who was the one who stood by who and made sure nothing happen, who was the one who feed you because you could not move, who was the one who pulling down you pants and wiped your... so you could relieve yourself. Who was the one who stayed up all night changing your gauze every 10 mins so that ever thing came out ok. I hope you well remember it was not him." I have such a feeling of disgust sour taste in my throat.
