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Thanks Reality. I must say I've been quite proud of myself & self control since H has been home.

Nothing yesterday. No more crazy door shut text sessions with OW.

This evening things got a little out of hand. H was with the girls at soccer practice & started texting me. I'm proud of myself for standing my ground. I know I could've done better, but didn't do too bad.

Here's the jist of it…
H said D was not trying very hard & doing average at best at practiced. Wonders why she won't hustle all the time like we know she can? I tell him to take it easy on her when she gets in the car bc she's had a long day with her school field trip & I'm sure she's tired. He replies with "Believe me, she won't be hearing me too much longer anyway"

This is where I did a mini freak out. I waited a few minutes & replied with Why?
He said-when I move away. I asked where is this coming from & he said it was the 'whole pregnancy thing' and he's still ticked about it.

This is where I should've put the phone down & walked away. Did I? Nope, no way, felt like torturing myself & backsliding & ruining it all! Ok, I didn't feel like that, but I might as well have been.

I asked where is this coming from? You just told me less than a week ago you needed time? Did I do something? What happened to the positive thoughts you said you were getting? Or were you just saying that? He said no, he wasn't just saying that & he really thought he was but he can't stop thinking of me being pregnant & planning it all to keep him around. He thinks he hates me, & will never forgive me.

I told him I was not going to listen to him call me a liar, that I didn't believe him about hating me, & that I would continue to give him the time he needs.
He replied with he didn't need time to realize something he already knows. We haven't really talked since.

We've had small chit chat since I've been home. New day tomorrow.

As always, thanks for checking in uRworthy.