Talked to therapist and they said cause of her upbringing and her enmesh meant with the mother I never stood a chance.
^^ Be careful with your thinking here. I've read that a few times recently, therapists suggesting that there's nothing to be done or the R never stood a chance. And while that may be true on many levels, it takes the focus off of your work on yourself.
And then you're also expressing the view that people can't change. I think we want to all believe that miracles can happen and people can change. You're changing, right?