Taking a step back-a fresh start

[cbtdad]

Thanks for the feedback Spartan.
I want to be the best person I can be. I want to give my son something I didn't have growing up. A stable childhood. I want to be the spiritual leader for my family and want to have a great family life. I want to have financial stability and be able to do things within reason without having to worry about money.

I completely agree with you now that I think about it about her at least being there. And I should have tried to validate her on why she is so stressed about it. I'm going to try and ask her that when she picks up son today.
I too was very much like you when it came to putting pressure on myself before a game. She is extremely competitive so I understand that. This show also adds I lot more stress for a few reasons. This is basically her home show. She has a brand new 70k horse that will be competing for the first time so a lot of eyes will be on her and she knows that. Add to that that OM will be there and it's a perfect storm I believe. Hmmm..... Maybe I don't need to ask her why she is so stressed. Seems like I already know.
The thing that bothers me though spartan is these things aren't like one game.
This stress stars 2 weeks before the show, then during the show its unbearable then for a week after she is so mentally exhausted all she does is sleep.
That's where I have a problem. It's like 3 or 4 months a year she puts all this before everything else. I just don't know if I can deal with that