Taking a step back-a fresh start

[cbtdad]

I've definitely come to realize that this all on me. I control what I am capable of and what I want in life. It's time to put it all together.
I am really starting to have doubts about wanting to be with W anymore.
Saw her yesterday during sons art show and she is just not a happy person and doesn't seem like she wants to do anything to change herself.
She said she didn't even want to be there last night because she was so tired and stressed about this horse show. I wanted to give her a big dose of reality and tell her how selfish she is being and ridiculous it is to be so stressed about something he supposedly has a such a passion for. I bit my tongue instead and just said sorry to hear that.
A girl that I work with lost one of her infant twin daughters last night. It really helps me put into perspective what is important.
W is back at horse show again today and will be home tonight, then leaves tomorrow morning and won't be back for 10 days. I have a lot to think about between now and then.