Portia, first off Good morning and glad to hear that you are at least trying to do the right things with not contacting him and all. I know it is hard, but believe that it is the right thing to do.
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Besides, if things are ramping up with the GF again, since her divorce may be finalized soon, it might be best if I do not hear from him.
It might be? Why do you question this. I struggled with the no contact as well, but realized it is more than just the right thing. For me, I just keep reminding myself that even if H were to return to me I would not want to be second to any other female in his life. The fact that my H hasn't even put me in the top ten helps me with this. I reflect and see how important we make our spouses/s.o.'s. Don't we want to be important to them too? I do, and the fact that I am not, keeps me at bay so to speak.
Portia, you know you are my girl...so don't take this as me being mean or harsh. When/if the time is right, he will call or contact you. The fact that you have a countdown going on tells me you need more work on detachment. I know it is hard...but what you (and we all) yearn for is not coming right now.
What can you do for you right now??? I think you need a nice vacation somewhere...can you plan a nice vacation to a tropical island (or something more your style)? You really do deserve it if you can plan something.
BombOctober 2012- OW 11/28/12 -H still denies Separated 11/29/12 Own place 12/12/12 Confessed OW/EA/PA 2/2/13 Oct 2013 - I knew I was done Jan 2014 - Anticipating the rest of my life
