2.4, sounds like your normal. I know I could've written most of what you did. Even though I'm dealing with things better, I still have those same thoughts and fears.
M - 42 W- 37 S's - 9,6 M-12 T-14 FIL- diagnosed with fatal disease spring 2011 ILYBNILWY - march '12 FIL - died jan '13 W Moved out week later