I have appt with new L at 10:00 this AM It's 2:00 AM now and I can't sleep. Today is the third day I've taken off from work this month (was supposed to be evaluated this week) cause of this mess. New L advised filing contempt charges and will. Previous L's secretary called me late yesterday afternoon that X's L had contacted my L to "work some things out", will transfer info to new L. Not sure what that means other than X got letter from my L requesting compliance with court order and was probably reason for angry texting last night, conference with fiance's supervisor yesterday and contact from her L.

I got a feeling this is going to get really bad before its over. The emotional impact of changes in DD's attitude along with the situation being virtually the ONLY topic of conversation between us is taking a toll on my and fiance's relationship. We're supposed to be planning for a wedding six weeks from now. Not having my kids for three weeks along with the estrangement X has been/is fostering is taking a toll on me. In the AM I will literally empty my bank account to pay retainer fee. My roof is leaking/needs replacing and I have appt with roofer tomorrow afternoon. Somehow I've got to find time to replace my water heater, finish my taxes and talk to a bankruptcy attorney.

"Now is the summer of our discontent...."


"Fear is the mind-killer" Muad'Dib
Me 53, XW 44, DD 14, DS 12
Bomb and OM 12/15/06
Separated 01/02/07
Divorced 05/13/08
X married OM(OMH) 08/2009
Married 06/09/13