Fartiltre, Hi, thanks for reading. I've been following your topic too...thanks for sharing.
As for my 180's...I do know my flaws (or at least the ones I can find) and am working on them. I'm actually being pretty thorough about this; listing them, reflecting deeply on them, deciding what to change and how to change it, even working on some kind of means of monitoring and recording my progress. I'm really doing it just for me, although I do hope that correcting them will be noticed and help my sit.
The staying busy and acting as-if are hard. Like you, GAL is tough for me due to time constraints, kids needs, etc. I try to find things to do that 'fit' my schedule; otherwise I'm trying to get out once or twice a week and just do things out of the house. I visit a friend, or go window shopping, that kind of thing. I'd like to get out and meet some people, but this makes me a bit nervous (okay...a lot nervous) and just doesn't feel right.
Acting as-if is just plain tough. I guess the key word here, at least at this point, is acting? As for keeping the hope alive, I won't quit. Don't want to...period.
Thanks again for reading...I appreciate the company, even though I wish none of us felt we needed to be here.
