LRT - Dealing with WAW Affair

[RealityTrip]

Thanks Everyone. It's such a blessing to be supported by people who "get it". Friends and loved ones want to help but just don't understand. Before it happened to me... I was just like them. Trying to comfort a soldier when I'd never been to war.

W texted me again today about taxes. We had a couple of exchanges. They were supportive on both of our parts and really pleasant. It was hard because I know she is with AP. (she doesn't know that I know) But of course I do since I was snooping again the other day. If nothing else, at least I controlled sticking it to her that I knew where she was. That was my M.O. before finding MWD. Enter the lurking controller/manipulator... I realize I was more pleasant and allowed the exchanges to go on longer than I would have BECAUSE I knew she was with the AP. Why did I do that? Uggh. Because I know they have a tendancy to fight about me. That's why. Oh well. I'll hop back on the wagon.

NG, I am already astonished at the strength I've had. Sometimes I can't believe all of us going through this type of betrayal even get out of bed in the mornings! And it's easy to forget how far I've come.

I am going on vacation with my friends 3 weeks from Saturday. A road trip where I get to drive myself and my dog and meet up with them. It'll be a long drive, 9 hrs. My friends tried to talk me into coming to them the night before in another city and riding with but I have decided that this independant road trip is probablly a good idea for me. So at lunch today I tried on a new swimsuit and got excited... so I'm going to focus on that. On getting ready for a much needed vacation. (she said with as much conviction as she could muster) lol!!!!