Stuck..how do I get out???

[tiredndrained]

I guess there is no perfect sitch w the mess we are both in. They are not involved regardless. They are both disengaged from the kids. I hope my kids one day realize i did everything i could one day n see it was just their dad. My h been buying them all kinds of crazy gifts lately. The other day he bought them both pocket knives. They are not scouts. We don't camp. As i found my 8 yr old juggling w it n threatening his brother w it...really...knives?? U couldn't have just spent time w them like other dads?