Taking a step back-a fresh start

[cbtdad]

Those are very good questions Mach!
I know I I dont work as hard as I should for the past couple of years. I think it has something to do with the fact that W and I had no mortage, car notes, debt of any sort thanks to her family. I believe when her grandmother bought a house for us and that debt was paid off and things were basically taken care of it made me feel like less of a man. And it slowly went from there. I think that was the starting point back towards the end of 2009 if I had to pinpoint it.
I look around me and see poeple doing unbelievable things and I know I have the potential to be great, but something is holding me back. Thats what i dont understand. You would think that after my world has been turned upside down and no longer have that "security" that I would be busting my a$$. I lose respect for myself when I think about it