I was driving D to school after ortho app this am. all of a sudden, got so sad. Just wanted to get back home. could feel it whelming(sp) up inside of me. Just want to get under my covers and cry. But can't! too much to do! H will ask about appointments and stuff to do with D. I feel like saying...why should you get to know? You have chosen to separate yourself from our family. But, I don't. I tell him what he wants to know and stay positive. I have to constantly remind myself if this is bringing me closer or farther. Its exhausting! I need to read more of others situations here and get connected with those in similar situations just to share this tremendous craziness that has been thrown upon us. I read others sits and feel like I am on the outside looking in. Some seem that they have established close friendships.know each others stories. I want that too! Thank you mylifex6 for reading my post. I am usually happy and busy when he is around. Sometimes when he is over I'll sit a minute to chat-mostly about kids schedules. Never bring up R talk.
M48 H50 M21 T26 S20 at college),S17,D15-cp, dev. delay- cogniv 5yrs old PA confirmed 7/2012 H separates 9/2012 H move home 2/13& 7/13 lasted 2weeks.ILYNILWY OW still in picture. h filed 10/13
