Ruby, I have no expectations and after months of saying that, it's becoming true. As Grace said there are many firsts after BD and each of those experiences has made me softer. I know, we all start out wanting to be strong and fighting for our marriages but I've found it's in the softening, the dropping of defenses, tearing down the walls, leaning into my pain that my true growth has come.
uR, yes we do! And I remember you from a previous screen name. Thanks for your insight.
vero, it was difficult because that was my role and they expected it from me especially after mom died. I still have moments when I feel I should be doing something helpful, but they pass.
Me 57/H 58 M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13
Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do. I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering. Caroline Myss
