Hoper1's story..

[hoper]

Hi,

Thanks for stopping by Snodderly..The objectivity that you inject into this is always priceless..

AJ - Happy to see you here..your posts too as always cut across the emotional fog that we LBS wrap ourselves sometimes by choice and sometimes by compulsion.. Thanks for your input

Msjj and AJ .. Yes somehow managing the 180's and the DB'in g but the OW remains a sorepoint for me..One reason for not unfriending is that i dont want them to know that i am aware (part DB but mostly to keep an eye on their next move) embarrassing though i feel they will further cover up if i block them now..
I have just stopped commenting on her posts , which i used to..on her sons pics, her business achievements and so forth..Trying to subtly get across the same.. dont think it has worked though..

Journaling..
Well he got back from his trip to find me and S cycling around the neighborhood..This DBing always works as i have read across the various posts..He generally was chatty..
also i guess we had hit the bottom of the roller coaster so had to go a bit up..
Had a good Sunday.. we played scrabble with S , H generally chatting a lot, initiating conversation ( cranked up the guilt level??) ,
Well back to Darth vader on monday.. his moustache makes him so unattractive..along with his outlook ..gloomy , dark and miserable..unfortunately all this yet rubs off on me ..

A funny thing happened .. i was miserable so stood by his bed when he was sleeping and was staring at him.. He opened his eyes and was startled..WHAT HAPPENED he asked, i said nothing just wanted a hug.. oh ok i know a major back slide but could not resist..

Well now he wants go for a short vacation only for S sake and then wants me to visit my sister for a longer one to generally get an objective view..The counselor believes it will do me some good atleast..
I am not so comfortable with this..Told him will think about it..

MLC Funnies ??..
Will stare at our pet fish so long as if expecting it to give all answers to the crazy questions he has put before us..
Will take one whole minute to answer any question relating to food..will you have this now ?? "Hmm i had that in the morning so this i can have for dinner i guess.. not a problem.."(to a homecooked fresh hot mesl )

NOT A PROBLEM???? My 180 's include a whole load of cooking as i know he loves food.. I had that slide over the years so though not sure it qualifies as a DB , just taking this as a 180..

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