you seem extra frustrated lately. You of course have every reason in the book TO BE frustrated, but it seems to be getting at you more than usual lately.
I also haven't seen too much mention of what you are working on for yourself in your recent posts... is there a project in the works? (Maybe your blue room needs some polka dots )
I could be way off, but I see you getting dangerously close to the "whirlpool of despair" and wouldn't want you to get sucked under.
Take care of yourself
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.