JOURNAL: Why won't she just end it? Why do they keep us dragging along while they play and live in their fantasy? Why is this ok for me? Why does it bother it me that she is with the AP when I know that she needs to experience the AP to face reality? Here I am thinking she is delusional, what if it's really me that's delusional?... Why won't she just say it's over, apologize for hurting me and dissolve our marriage?

This it's my "crazy". Welcome to my head.

Me(F):40 WAW:44
T:13yrs M:9yrs
BD:2/12 (I saw a text)
ILYBINILWY: 5/12
PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11)
S:2/13
Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13
W moves home to R: 10/13