Stuck..how do I get out???

[albamarie]

tiredndrained,

I have been at the yo-yo point of MLC for 2yrs now. I'm leaving, you have to let me go, I'm not leaving my family, where would I go, why should I go, I should have left it's too late now. That has been the conversation over the last 22 months.

There is some crazy MLC logic to it, bottom line they don't know what the hell they want. They don't have any real commitment to OP, so the smart ones don't leap into being roommates blindly. The're not really sure they want to leave home incurring new consequences and issues, and it's really easier not to have to. Then you have the ones that feel guilty and those scared ones who sacrifice what they ''really'' would want to do, but you need them to stay around, don't you . That's called it's all your fault I can't go play, please mom don't make me go!

I spent the summer last yr crying on the front porch into the night as H worked nights and spent his time talking to ea, ea's can be harder that ow, he's addicted to being the hero, it's not sex, it's recognition/validation as the POS he is today. He would never call me and even refused my calls at times because I remind him, to himself, that he's a loser.

I have started crying again lately for about a week now, not sure why, but I am def back sliding. Not even because I want him, just sad about the sitch as a whole. Maybe because I can't shake him!

My H not willing to move out feels like abuse, really like having to face your executioner daily. Sorry, wine talking, it was a hard day. Hope tom is better for us all!