Barely floating, I am sending you my prayers for strength.
I know how hard this is. Watching daddy break your kids heart. Trust me I know. Breath deeply.
Be grateful your kids are healthy and safe and you get to share their love and laughter every day.
Your h is a fool for giving up so much love.
Your post and energy have always inspired me. Please know 18 months is not a long time to get over this. It's nothing. Allow your self to feel the pain. This hurts, don't gloss over it.
Do you do anything therapeutic for yourself, counseling or 12 steps, a regular planned time weekly where you take care of you?
I love you.
This ain't easy and one day your kids will know how strong you were for them. They probably already do.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13