Hi all. I'm just blasting in for a second. I had a rough weekend, being down on myself, et al. I've been having doubts about how I'm living my life in general... just not feeling like my heart and mind are in line with my actions.
Potential WA Alert! I even wondered if trying to make things work with H wasn't part of my disatisfaction. Maybe it is one of those "never should have been" relationships and that it's dragging me down. Obviously with spineless, blaming, bitter kind of thinking I needed to slap myself back into reality, which is that "this is my life and H is a part of it, Amen."
My other theory is that I'm just getting a jump on my midlife crisis, because my other line of thinking is that "I have worked, suffered and put up with enough garbage that I deserve to feel good about myself and not give a rip about what anyone else things." H said he may be having a midlife crisis too, so I suggested we save ourselves a lot of nuttiness and have one together.
I wrote out a little goals and objectives page yesterday. Y'all know me, I can't sit around griping about my life forever, while doing nothing. Last night, I even surprised myself and volunteered to be the organizer for my Italian conversation group. The more I think about what we could do the more excited I am about this. Plus, I know I'm great at this sort of thing. Whoo hoo!
So there's all my news. Have a good day everyone! --z
