Hacker, thanks for stopping by. I AM light years ahead of where I was in the beginning, which isn't hard considering I was unemployed, depressed and on the edge of a divorce. That wasn't a very merry Christmas, but it did help having everyone here to share it with. Thanks! (((Everyone))) You know, I just realized that I've been on here as long as some of the people who used to make me wonder how they could do this for as long as they had. Go figure.
I haven't seen H much this week. He's been working on a job application and starting his certification studies. Even though it's costing me time with him, I'm glad that he's getting his actions in line with his expectations.
For my part, I am trying not to get my hopes up and remaining as patient as possible with his absence. He misses me and I miss him. The other day, we were actually passionate... a new word for us. That's all good.
Last weekend, H and I made a day of going to the airshow, which turned out absolutely fabulous. I handled comfort and food issues. He handled logistics, photography, and acting as my personal emcee. Between my huge picnic spread and his knowledge of aircraft, we had a great time. We were too exhausted to do much for the rest of the weekend, but we had a good time nonetheless.
His birthday was this week. As usual, he forbid me to get him anything. I usually ignore this, but this year we've both got financial constraints... so even if I wanted to break my no-credit policy, he'd feel obligated to break his. Instead, I decided to give him something memorable. We had plans for a dinner out, so I gave him a "spy date." Long story. The short version was that he was a great sport, and I could tell that he was really touched that I would go to all that effort.
Sometimes I actually think my H is impressed by me, though I think it helps that he's a bit happier with himself recently. I hope everyone has a good week. Take care. --z
