Sandi - I looked up self-esteem on Wikipedia and "get it" a bit more, at least the theory. Have also found a page with self esteem exercises to read on the airplane.
I'm really glad. B/c no matter how much we try to convince you of your worth, it would do no good if you don't have a healthy self esteem.
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!