My painting party wasn't for you, I like blue!

[albamarie]

They are in such need of change and something to quicken them in there broken hearts that they - like Tired said - go searching in any direction while breaking the very one thing that they ever had that was solid and good.

I told H this morning if he moved out he would't have to see my face or try to determine if I was detaching or not, he could just put me out of his mind like he already does while out there! He stays soo silent, like I'm trying to ruin his perfect plan.

We talked about him leaving, he's scared to death of leaving, he came up this excuses like, well I will have to take half my pay...we cant afford that, I'm too old, I don't want to live with ea, why should I...this is were the money comes to, this is my family...I have this...this is mine.

woah....buddy! Your the one breaking up our M, H-" I don't know I'm doing that, I don't know? " "what do you think I'm doing out there, I'm not having R's, I don't have time for that, I'm working, ea is a place far from home to settle at."

Me; '' Ok, look, you have been talking, and tripping over your own a$$ for almost 2yrs w/concern for this skank's life, when you talk to her every night @ 2am it is not about work and a place to crash, your invested in her well being, you are addicted to her crazy, street life, and have no regard for what it has done to us. Get the F out of my life, I want nothing more to do with your blatten ignorance.'' so yes, I do see that you have had plenty of time for R's, just not w/me.

H stairs at his shoes says nothing and walks into the kitchen and cleans it top to bottom.

I can't insult him, I can't kick him out, I can't hurt his feelings, I bet bullets would just bounce right off of him as well!