To be honest, I "think" I am fairly well detached emotionally. What wife says or does in her own life doesn't affect me much. What does affect me is the role it plays on everyone else. Listening to my daughter complain because W broke a promise. Watching D struggle in school, listening to friends and aquintences express their concerns for her actions. Seeing her stupid face every time I turn around, knowing that she has no plan to move off my property or stop socializing AT my business. yesterday, I was at a BBQ with friends and family. W sent text messages to several of the people attending, letting them know she would have to delete them from her facebook until this "situation" between her and I is finalized. Now, I don't really care about that, but I do care that it affects everyone around me and then of course it affects me as well.....those are the things that bother me most, the "Bu11shit" I guess.
She wanted so badly to be finished with me, to "move on" with her life....but instead she sits here in limbo blaming everyone else and holding no accountability. She wants to date. She wants to build her own life. She wants a house. She wants away from me and my family...but here she sits. That does erk me and I don't think that is something I can actually detach from. I just want her OUT of my life....pretty much the same way she felt when she dropped the Bomb on me 6mo. ago. I just want her to go away.
