[in_it]

Thanks RealityTrip! All encouragement helps.

I typically can do really well with the "as if". It's the first day or so back that's hard. You're right about the mind movies, man they stink.

I think what's making it harder for me this time is because he said he wanted me to give him time. He's never said that before. Of course, I immediately start mind reading…does he mean it? Is he saying that so I'll just leave him alone & he can have some peace? If that's the case, then I really don't understand because I don't question, talk, etc about anything anyhow. The last time I pressured him for answers was in the first week of January.

Ugh, I can tell already tonight is going to be uncomfortable. I can't stop my mind today for some reason & it barely even time for lunch!