Confused about what I want

[BRNR]

It IS painful to sort through their stuff.

Boy, it sure was...Some of the clothes he left I had remembered when he had gotten them/what he looked like in them, etc...I also found some packets of pictures...another hard moment. I went through them and took all pictures of H out, but then I looked at them and remembered the moments. We were so happy during those times...

But the process was good. It made me remember the great man my H was and how he is such a contrast to that right now. I will need that reminding when and if he baits and provokes me into something in the future. I also think this will help me to have that distant compassion for my MLC'er.

I am having a good day, had an overall good weekend honestly, especially after last weeks argument and H's birthday. I am finding I don't dwell on things as long as I used to.

RH-Also I have followed your threads for quite some time and I am glad to see some positive movement in your sitch with your H. Hope things continue to progress further.