Was self reflecting this morning, and realized that I have slid back into the mental place where I have been reacting to what W does instead of being detached and happy.

Rewrote my list of actions/goals to be focused on me and S. I really have to stop thinking about my W and give her real emotional space. Even though I have not been pressuring her directly she must have felt my subconscious desires for her to be one way or another.

Today is a new day with a renewed focus on my well being. I really need to stay off the roller coaster.

Me-36 W-31
M-7
S-5
BD Dec/12- things were wrong for awhile, head was in the sand

Seeking means: to have a goal
Finding means: to be free, to be receptive, to have no goal