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Just updating from the weekend…
Took the girls to dinner, a movie, a play date with other friends (I GALd during their play date), surprised them by meeting my parents, brother & SIL for lunch.

H called Thursday night when he landed to talk to the girls. We text back & forth a few times on Friday. Nothing big, just chit chat. H did call for a few minutes Friday night when the girls were already in bed. I was surprised. We really only talked about D7 soccer game.

Saturday I got some quotes on new tires for my SUV & relayed them to H by text. We text back & forth for a bit about that, then he asked about D5 soccer game & I just replied that she won. He asked if she scored any goals & I said 2. He asked if they played a good team & I said a decent one. Then H said-ok bye. This is where I backslid. I asked him what that was for? He said I was being short. So I replied with I didn't want to bother him & was trying to give him time & space like he requested, but I didn't want him to shut me out either. He said he wasn't mad or shutting me out. Of course I should've dropped it right there, but I had to push it & said that's what it feels like. Then, I told H about how I had told the girls I had a surprise for them & would tell them after the soccer game (it was the play date). When we got in the car after the game & I told them what it was D7 said-oh man, I thought you were going to tell us dad was coming home early & had been really excited. He replied with I'm sorry & I said it's ok, just hard & it hurts.

Later Saturday night he text me about some random stock prices & refinancing the house. I kept it casual. He also text me when he was going to bed to say goodnight.

I sent H a pic of the girls early this morning about 7:30 before church. I didn't hear anything from him until about 15 min after bedtime for the girls. D7 was still awake in her bed & I woke D5 so they could speak to him. We spoke for a few minutes & he said he hadn't done anything all day long.

I'll post the rest of my convo & feelings shortly. I've got some laundry to fold & this post is getting long anyhow. Plus, I think I need some time to gather my emotions.