I think I want to control things because it makes me feel important. Growing up, I was always the center of attention and loved being in the "spotlight". As the years went on, the spotlight faded. By taking control and being in charge, I feel like I'm important and somewhat back in my spotlight. It also makes me feel like I won't be forgotten. I have this huge fear of being alone. Instead of enjoying time by myself, I crave being with others.
Self worth? Insecurity?
So what are you doing to change this? HOW are you doing things differently?
