Journaling: boy, the ups and downs of marriage: the day started nicely, with beautiful 10 of 10 weather outside, we'd all slept well. I brought tea up to my W and D, who were ensconced in the same narrow bed, and W was friendly.
Dutch baby was breakfast (I made) and good, after which the girls went outside to garden. I had volunteered to go to the dump with more rose clippings, so they trimmed and trimmed. At some point, as my W and D had a home dance rehearsal coming up a bit later, I brought out yogurt with walnuts in it. Even this was accepted, though they put off eating it.
30 minutes later my W comes in, upset, as the walnuts had not been properly shelled and she had broken a tooth. I felt like h-ll, guilty (I should have looked through the walnuts before just dumping them in!), and said sorry to my W after calling the emergency dentist (who could do nothing on a Sunday). My W said I was sorry for myself, "as usual", and she was right.
We haven't talked much since, though I did ask how her tooth was and offered to make dinner (which she then did not eat). The train goes at 5.30 tomorrow morning, so I'll not be seeing her or D much more today, and then not for a month...
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Sandi - I looked up self-esteem on Wikipedia and "get it" a bit more, at least the theory. Have also found a page with self esteem exercises to read on the airplane. A 6 hour layover in Newark awaits!
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.
