My painting party wasn't for you, I like blue!

[albamarie]

MIZ-not sure if it was you, but someone said to me it sounds like we're M to the same H.

said "he should have been in school". ?????
Watched a news show about famine and H says "they should just be let to die"

My h has said these words verbatim! It's crazy how insensitive they can be when they are the ones crying in such pain for understanding.

Romeo just makes it easier and easier for me to see him clearly.

my biggest fear is one day he will awake n be ready to be an active n present member of our family n i don't want it anymore.

Tired-
I hear you loud and clear!!!! In my attempts to "make" him leave he got clingier, I just want him to disappear, I can feel the air lighter just when he goes to work. I light up every time he leaves, I don't even really understand it myself, but it feels soo good.

The only way I will shake him will be if I move out, I know this, I strugge with the option everyday. My kids are grown but the're not done, the instructions said 18yrs, but they need that little extra for that golden crust!

never works toward fixing things but never goes. Maybe he thinks we will b roommates forever... i hope u r right n one day we will know.

My H said point blank, he is an empty man, with no compassion, can I live w/that. Even though I said no, here he sits. Clearly he thinks his ''presence'' here is very important to me. I recorded our last talk and when I replayed it I was shocked to really "hear" him say, "isn't it just enough for you to have me home, doing chores, bringing in the $$?

I heard him say, he will not ask for forgiveness, he will not be w/me like a H, or act as a F! It was amazing to have my cell phone recoding app on and really sit alone and truly hear what comes out of his mouth. Roommates, yup, I think that's what they want, my H talks about furniture also, and even about buying another house. I said straight to his face why would I wan't to make another 30y commitment w/you? He just looks at me like I have 3 heads!

I leave him to think what he wants, I believes truly, that I would never leave him or want him out of my life. I told him I meant it when I said go, go away forever, forget you know me, have your life, I want no part of you. All he said was this is his family, he already has us, narcissistic much!

I hope we'll know when we know...I want to know already!