Thanks Snodderly! I think the certificate couldn't hoit. I know how to do a fair amount of office related tasks, but during my epic job search last year became fully completely totally aware how important it is to have a piece of paper that says I know what I know. And who knows how long wonderful-job will last? Things do happen in this world, and while it will be great to have something other than fastfoodland on the resume, I would still be faced with the "Schooling? ... not much in the last 20 years..."
H told me he later figured out his phone does have a word app, so maybe I won't continue to be a "notes" receptacle. In the past, when H has had his grand ideas (and some of them have indeed been grand) he has had me "edit" and proof read his writing. So far this time, for the BlackJack book, he has not.
Although, he did tell me yesterday that it was "on the screen" if I wanted to take a look. I didn't at that time but I'll feel the sitch out and perhaps ask about it.
Question. Just prior to bd, and for a couple months after, H had radically changed his diet and lost about 40 pounds. His diet was extreme, apples and like a dozen almonds or something - and little else. He has slid off that, has regained I'd say about 15 pounds, and is suddenly re-interested in food. (During the diet/ bd era he claimed he was no longer interested in food, nothing appealed to him.) And now he has an appetite again. I think this is good? A sign that his depression might not be quite so deep atm? I have seen references to the MLC diet/weight before, could this be a possible sign that something's changing? (And lordy could it be a change-for-the-better??) Hoping for some vet responses here!! (Not-so-vets welcome too )
Anyway, I'm taking advantage of his renewed interest and doing a sort of 180. Maybe its more like a 110...
I have usually been the family cook, although H can and does cook if schedules dictate thus. However, I haven't, for YEARS, really tried with my dinners. I'd throw together "enough" but now I'm trying to up my game.
I'm not "expecting" anything from H other than him to eat the food. Just thinking here that if he can begin to enjoy one area of life, it might spill over into other areas. Well, that's my current game plan anyway.
I woke up rather depressed, feeling that ache in the chest (soul), and despairing over "how long can I do this"? I wallowed for a bit until something, some voice from some where said "Who knows how long you can do this!! But, you can do it for today, now get out of bed!!"
I'm choosing to find this voice motivational rather than crazy
Me 46 H 56 M 22 yrs S22, D20, Twin Ss18
You teach people how to treat you by what you allow. What you stop. And what you reinforce. ~~~~~~~ A lack of boundaries invites a lack of respect.
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