Hey, all. It's been a while! I missed keeping up with you but I've been using the time to write.
Updates: I get several flashbacks a day (M life, D process, OW.) Some of them bring anger and some regret. I'm addressing this in the book.
I've been busy also w my mom's heart problems. She admitted the D really got to her and she didn't want to admit it until now. So she'll have a cardiac procedure on Monday. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers. I'm actually nervous about it.
I finished the first draft of the book! I'm doing the first edit. Question for you all: I'm addressing what I call "Special Situations" such as dealing with the few days after you've been left behind. Any other special times/situations that you would want to see addressed? I have 5 already but I know I'm probably missing something.
I got a letter from the L with a checklist. Lots of stuff still left to do.
Now XH left for CA to go to the wedding we were both invited to. I wonder if he brought the OW.
The more I think about it, the more I realized my H always made me feel bad about myself with his demeaning comments. I could never do anything right in his eyes (from day one) He never would just congratulate me on something but find what was wrong about it or joke about what I had accomplished. He was a toxic presence in my life, and I loved him so much that I was blinded.
Not sure whether I want to get M again. I was pretty certain months and weeks ago, but now it seems so not appealing. I only want to focus on my book.
AND, I am going to do the most adventurous thing I've ever done: I booked a trip to Hawaii! It's exhilarating. I'll use the $$ from the sale of the house. It's expensive, but I figured now or never. I still can't believe I'm doing this.
