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[Notlikingthis]

Now I'm starting to panic. H is out right now looking for a house to rent. I just don't know what to think anymore. He's so determined to get away and I know there is absolutely nothing that I can do to stop him. None of the kids know anything about this and he hasn't even talked about them and the impact that it will have on them. They're all grown but what does he think? That they will just accept the fact that he needs "his space". Wait till they find out there's an OW. Speaking of the OW, she is making plans to come up here in the next few days or week (per H). Maybe I should find out what time she is coming in and make an apprearance at the airport. Making a scene is not my thing but at this point I'm thinking about it.

I woke up in the middle of the night with an overwhelming urge to either slap some sense into him while he slept or cry . I opted for getting up and cried until no more tears would come. Hormones??? Maybe. Frustration because I can't do anything to stop this. Definitely.

If this is just the beginning, I can only imagine what it will be like in a month, six months or a year. Thank God I'm busy and don't have a lot of time to think otherwise I'd be ready for the loony bin.

I feel pretty alone right now. I can't talk to friends, relatives and refuse to talk to him about anything other than the necessary things. I just keep smiling and doing my best to act as if his behavior is normal and all is well. The hardest part is when he asks how I'm doing "with all of this" (meaning his decision to move out). He seems so sincere when he asks or talks to me about anything right now. I know he isn't and that makes me even angrier at him.

I need someone to tell me something positive about this right now.....anyone?