Yes doing well and there are signs that cloud is lifting, that I will be ok no matter what the outcome. Guess I am detaching.....very slowly .
You had to mention the smokes . Well I am off them still, but had more than a few blips over the months. Mainly when I get a bout of anxiety which happens every few weeks!
I spent most of my youth until my early twenties in bands. It used to be my passion in life. I played when I met W but had stopped playing in bands. It is the perfect stress relief for me as I can lose myself for hours learning a new song. I had forgotten how much I enjoy it, but kids, career and M meant I let it slowly fizzle out.
You should learn to play. It is fun if you like music and as I say, you can lose yourself for hours during an evening.
"I still say you guys are going to make it."
Thanks for the vote of confidence but I am not so sure. Truth is I am finally getting W off that pedestal I had her on (at long last!)....which has been a sobering experience believe me.
I truly take my hat off to the long timers on here. I am 8 mths post BD and starting to have doubts. The thought of being here for 2 yrs plus seems like a lifetime at the moment.
This truly is hardcore!
Take care buddy and you keep on course. Don't push her and dig deep, remember you could still be here 12 months from now...are you prepared for that?
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. Well I am off them still, but had more than a few blips over the months. Mainly when I get a bout of anxiety which happens every few weeks! 
