Hey, all! I don't have much to say. Just posting mainly because if I don't I'll end up on page 3. H came over last night and wasn't even in the door before he asked me what was wrong. I have to say that I love this recent addition to our relationship. He notices and asks when I'm upset. So far he's got dead on accuracy, too. I didn't really want to talk about it.
Mainly, I was emotionally exhausted from the C. Also I was moping around asking myself, "How bad am I really?" Goodness gracious! It's such a hard line to walk between not letting my H define my worth and trying to listen to his concerns, especially when what he says is so harsh. So I kept going back and forth between anger ("he's a nutcase imagining things") and sadness ("I hurt someone I love). Naturally, I know these things get blown out of proportion over time. The question is "how bad am I really?" I don't know.
As far as I know no one else has ever thought I had a serious problem with anger to address, but maybe they're all scared of me. My late-H was just as passionate as me. Then there is the fact that it is just like my H to omit details in order to manipulate someone into believing I'm a monster. He was remarkably vague in describing my "behavior." BUT, I don't want to just blow this off. Ugh! As you can see I'm still bugged about it.
Well, it's election day, so I've gotta run. Y'all have a good night. --z
